This Girl is...

my turn to attempt a 'this girl' entry..

i'm the girl who never had friends of the opposite gender till she went to JC for 3 months.

i'm the girl who grew up always in the shadow of her siblings, always the fattest child, the not-so-clever one, the one who needed to work harder den the others, the one who needed to prove to her parents tt she could do well in school too..

i'm the girl who got trapped in the lift when she was 3 yrs old cuz she didn't know how to walk fast enough to get through the lift doors, & wasn't tall enough, or smart enough (yet) to press the open button. she went all the way up to the top floor cuz as someone called for the lift at the higher floor, & as she was wailing her lungs out cuz she was so scared, the other pple didn't know how to soothe her, till she was back at the ground floor where her anxious mother took her into her arms & she stopped crying..

i'm the girl who cried when her photo was taken when she was a toddler & only grew out of the fear after ~5yrs old.. & she's grown to love taking pictures of her friends, her surroundings, & herself..

i'm the girl who once tried to kill herself, but was saved by the grace of God..

i'm the girl who is easily affected by how others treat her, what they say to her/behind her back (& she subsequently discovers), quite emotional at times, & as her friend would say, over sensitive..

she had her first real taste of alcohol when she was 17, has never got drunk before, never felt high before, cuz she can't hold her liquour, & hates the taste of alcohol..& has since sworn off alcohol..

she first went clubbing underage (16).. enjoyed it.... went a few more times as she grew up, den took a 1 yr absence before she went again just last sat.. & it was fun again for her..

in many things, she is naive & easily tricked, manipulated.. & hates finding out tt she has been played with by others..& she's still trying to find forgiveness within her heart for those who've done wrong against her.. some easier to forgive & forget den others..

i'm the girl who is thankful for the many blessings i've been bestowed upon in life, grateful that she is among the top ?% of the population of the world who has her own computer, the chance to study university overseas, parents who can afford luxuries, support from good friends & most importantly, she has a God to depend on. she wants to serve her God & Saviour all of her days... & to always put Him first in her life..she yearns to see the day when her family is reconciled to Him & she doesn't have to worry any longer about the constant fights, arguements, disagreements tt pop up all the time.. instead, she can bask in the knowledge tt we will all be together for eternity..

she has never had a stable male friend, sometimes thinks of having one. sometimes also tinks of the "what if i had" with a certain someone, who thank goodness has now moved on.

i'm the girl who has ran away from this person for close to 3 years, & only recently picked up the courage to act normally around him, not run away & even picked up the courage to msg him a note.

she's grateful for the friends she's made in sec sch, who have walked 8 yrs of life with her (& counting). she was very very happy when she heard 1 of them went to church with the other fren, & she prays for the day all her friends can know God. She misses them each time she comes back to melb to study & is sometimes jealous of the outings they can have without her... she looks forward to every holiday back home cuz she can spend time with them..

she's also immensely thankful for the friends here.. 4 years in australia have changed her greatly & opened up her mind & shaped her character for the better. (or so she feels)..

she's thankful to that girl who's been there since trinity, always her enclyclopedia of knowledge, the one to copy notes from, the one who is full of quirks & says words like 'kripsy' & 'woar'.. the one who's been teased about another someone.. that girl who loves to keep herself busy & sleeps really little, who battles with eye bags problems & loves to eat xiao long bao & egg tarts..

she hangs out most with the girl who loves to sleep at odd hours & for long hours, giggles at just about every detail, always makes comments tt are sometimes a tad embarrassing, will never be forgotten for her attempts at asking for chilli oil & more dim sum in Cantonese in the chinese resturant, who finishes her all her food & can still eat this girl's share. who changes her crushes at pretty quick rates, except for the particular one tt took awhile. that girl also loves to fashion show in new clothes, or clothes tt have been dumped in a huge pile in a corner of her rm, & she discovers them again much later, delighting in the 'new' item tt she's found. she also likes to ask this girl to do things for her, cuz she knows this girl will say yes to just about everything (within limits)..

she also has a big-sis-kinda-fren who has since returned to Sg begin working life. that fren often gave her good solid advice, lived near her & even had a spot at the corner of Swanston/Victoria st. named as 'Our corner' . she hopes this fren can get attached & married soon so that she can be either her bridesmaid or help organise her wedding.

not forgetting, she also has this fren who's super blur & has to be given directions, thou she is a year older that this girl. this fren calls her bf an endearing term, but because she hangs out too often with this girl, she also tends to slip & call this girl with the same term. she is this girl's support in matters of the spirit, & always impresses this girl with her ability to make friends. she also doesn't sleep much & always seems to be able to wake for classes, & helps this girl take notes all the time.

this girl worries what the future holds & isn't looking forward much to graduation in 3 mths time cuz of the thought of moving to another state & a starting frm scratch scares her.