i never thot i would say this.. but i'm actually HAPPY that i can finally start studying for my 2 exams! i've got so many assignments due within the first 3 weeks of nov it seemed almost never ending & i wasn't gonna have time to touch my patho & biochem.. but.. i shock myself! =D the past 6 days have been dedicated to doing assignments.. & i am so proud of myself hahha cuz i actually completed 2 essays (2000 & 800 words) and a website in that timeframe! ok la, maybe not fully complete yet, still hvn't done the referencing for the essays & hvn finished working out the kinks for the website... but the skeleton & the flesh are there oredi! just need to fix the skin on & i'm done! muahhaha.. so impressed with myself man.. its the first time i've actually done so much sch work in 1 week! now i've still got one more 2000 word essay left which is due on the 21st.. so i'm not too worried abt tt yet.. hmmm which reminds me to work out a plan for tt essay before i start studying tmr..

on another note, am feeling really irritated with stoopit MCAT! for some absurd reason i cannot seem to login to their testing system & view my results.. super pissed off now cuz the customer service is so sucky! the first email i sent off asking wat's wrong came back with a bullshit answer tt referred me back to the same website tt i couldn't access in the first place! (i & oredi told them that in the email!) then, i sent back a sacarstic reply saying i still CAN't login & asked that they reply asap cuz i need to sent my scores to Sydney Uni. Argh.. but as usual, the efficiency of the western world just isn't up to standard & its been almost 2 days & they haven't replied me! sucks man.. sis says that NUS is super fast in replies.. & sometimes she gets replies within hours! argh! stoopit angmohs! work more they complain, not enuf benefits they complain, everything complain! & here they are messing up my future! =/

sigh.. okok enough ranting... pardon the attitude.. i just am super pissed with the MCAT pple... doesn't help tt mum's been nagging almost everyday abt whether they have replied, or whether i have gotten my results yet.. argh.. she even thot tt i was PURPOSELY withholding my results from her cuz they were bad & i dint want them to know.. so silly man.. sigh..

i've decided i better apply for something just incase i don't get to do dent next year.. should always have a backup plan rite? sigh.. although the thot of doing anything else just sucks.. i dunno also whether this is just a test of my faith? i mean, God was generous enough to grant me a conditional offer from usyd when i dint think i could have made it... but with the muckup with the MCAT results now.. is He testing me? or is it the work of the enemy? sigh.. & if i were to apply for another course, would that mean i am testing God, & that i dint have enough faith tt He will carry through His initial plan for me to do dent? of course, i'm assuming that was His will in the first place. sigh.. sometimes i wish God would make things clearer to me.. but den again, maybe i just am not seeking Him enough, especially these days when i've been busy wif sch work.. sigh, yes Lord, its time i went back to my first love again.. sorry i made you wait so long..

home beckons to me in another 21 days! am flying home 25th now cuz i moved my flight back again to pack up my stuff first.. can't wait to get home man... argh.. now i just have to get over the next 3 weeks & i will no longer be a science student! *gasp* =)