i have a love-hate relationship with Singapore.. or rather, a love-hate relationship with the people here.. specifically... my family..

had yet another run in with my sis today.. she gets on my nerves so! i really really hate it when she acts all princessy and haughty & expects the whole world to revolve around her! actually. come to think of it.. she's like that ALL THE TIME. she's just a spoilt brat that's been given too much by my father.. & no one can control her now cuz she's become so used to the getting her way in everything. argh! i really really hate it when my family doesn't treasure the time i have in Sg, its as if to them i'm a redundant person, just there to irritate them, or for them to order me around. this is crap la. other people have nice families, how come mine just sucks so much. seems as if no amount of praying can help them change. or maybe that's cuz i don't have enough faith that they will change. sigh. i just know there will come a day when i cannot take all this giving in, all this catering to others', all this crap! that i will either hve a nervous breakdown or a major argument with them. sometimes i wish i can be more like my bro.. heck the world, heck the family. yes, sounds bad i know but its the truth. he's become more like a visitor then part of the family, he distances himself from us, goes out early, comes home late. we hardly even see his face around, much less have meals together. but oh well. he IS 26 already. plus he's a smart ass doctor, so i suppose he as more right to be in his own world then me.

me and my screwed up family. will we ever be 'unscrewed'. probably not until Jesus comes..