i'm back! Part 1

oh i'm back frm the Missions training retreat at Lilydale organised by OMF(Overseas Missionary smtg.. dunno wat F really stands for- its either Focus or Foundation can't rmbr hehe) & i hve to say, it was so so so good man! gosh.. its like, i went there wif so many worries on my mind, so much to think abt.. but even on the first night there God already comforted me & eased my worries.. & prob tts y i had such a good wkend away.

there's so much to say! & i prob will end up making this a really long entry.. hmm ok lets start:

we arrived at the camp around 7.30pm & were abit late for dinner, but we weren't the last group to arrive so whew! hehe.. after dinner we started the workshops. first nite was on expectations- on the mission trip, on what will happen there, on what we wanted to do there, & what we had to face there as well. The speaker Sydney really taught me to question myself abt my own expectations cuz i didn't really hve any at tt time. actually i was pretty scared going away for this wkend & the whole trip.. but i'm not the only one! =) cuz rite, Jing & i were in Siew Min's car, & on the way there while chatting, she suddenly said:" oh i'm so scared abt the wkend, i dunno what to expect..." & it was like whoa for me & Jing! cuz we were both feeling the same way too! haha.. so den the conv went on abt how we were scared abt the trip etc.. & that nite Sydney dwelt with fear in the workshops too.. i tink God really knew we needed His assurance & comfort that what we were doing was right & was what He wanted & so He sent Sydney to deliever His message.. =)

friday nite we also all sat down as a team together for the first time. Roger (OMF director) joined us & told us more abt Kunming & what we were prob gonna do there. ohh but he saboed me the next morning! =/ ok, so fri nite he asked us which church we go to, then i said tt the last few weeks i've been goin to SSCOC. den he said i should talk to the missions pastor there & have the church praying for me during the trip. but i told him if i did that the pastor would prob make me go up infront of the congregation & share abt it & that would be so embarrassing for me! cuz i'm always be paiseh abt public speaking stuff.. & u noe what! the next morning he picked me to get up & ans a qn tt we were supposed to pick out of this box of qns tt we all submited on fri nite. i was so so so paiseh! arrrr! hehe.. but ok la.. i managed to do it still! hehe.. but i tell u.. its so weird how God works man! the qn was:" why do u want to step out of your comfort zone & go for a missions trip. Aren't u afraid?" u see what i mean! haha.. so apt for me right! hmm so i ans tt ya i was afraid, but that i know i should just trust in God & let Him use me.. & if i'm afraid, then think abt the pple there, they also don't know us, won't they be afraid of us too?

... the entires so long i decided to make it a 2 part thing..