i can't believe that after 3 years of running away, avoiding all contact, i finally met him today! & to top it off... i looked so crappy & messy & so.. unpretty!.. ok not that he is a guy that i want to impress... but after avoiding someone for so long, you wouldn't want to end up meeting him when you don't look your best, nor feel the most confident about yourself right?

when lou said he was outside the lifts, i seriously dint want to walk out of the lift into the open.. did a double take before i dared to put my foot out.. dint tink i could stay in the lift anywae, esp since he prob could see me through the glass door. so if i blatantly avoided him again, that would be super rude right!?

dunno where i got the courage to talk & not squirm & run away.. God perhaps? yes, must be.. & i even acted 'normal' around him.. came home & thought it through.. & i realise i should really, seriously, stop all this avoiding & running away.. after all, we were once good friends.. so i think i shall send him an sms saying that it was nice seeing him again today.. only thing is, dunno if his no. has changed... dun forget i haven't spoken to him in almost 3 years!