was supposed to go out wif the gals & Lou's fren on fri nite, but just couldn't get the mood right to go. ironically, i got myself all prepared, left the house, only to find that i forgot to bring my ID so had to backtrack home again. that just made my mood turn even more down.. frm a not so keen to go, it became dunwan to go at all.. silly right? so i came hme & called su & told her i wasn't gonna go in the end. den had to change out of my clothes & wash my face *again*.

i dunno.. but perhaps it was God's plan that i don't go? cuz i ended up spending the night talking to my bro online till 4am. i don't think i've ever had had such a deep & meaningful conversation with him. we used to be really close back in Spore, but ever since i came over to melb, we've lost our closeness & kinda drifted apart. but that night we really talked alot, abt our parents, abt his attitude at hme, abt God, abt his gf.. he even acted like a real big bro & starting advising me abt wat kinda guy i should get & even asked me if i was with anyone or liked anyone now! so weird cmg frm him hehe... cuz even last time when we did talk we never did dwell on BGRs... hmm i suppose this is part of growing up..

also talking to him help me decide on CG matters.. he used to be a cgl too.. so had lotsa advise & encouragement for me.. i tink mayb God knew i needed human counsel, thou i had confidence that He wants me to take up the position, but He probably also knew i just needed the final push frm pple around me. so.. all in all.. God is Good, & always will be! He always knows what or whom i need.. Thank You God, Thank You kor kor.. =D