the unfairness of it all!!!

today has turned out to be a really bad day.. the online lects dun work, & i did so badly for my tut essay in biotech & i got sad marks for patho.. sigh.. nothing's going right.. how come i've got to get crap shit marks for my work when my friends seem to be doing so well in school!? *sob!*

i can't believe how unfair things can be.. at times like this i wish i was not a Christian, wish i was a mean b**** who would go all out to get back at someone who did me wrong! argh..!! it doesn't help that we're supposed to be friends!

okok i dunno if my anger can really be justified as righteous anger.. sigh.. but seriously u would be really pissed too if this happened to you! i mean, she didn't even do her work! & that idiot demonstrator actually GAVE her the darn ans & she just wrote it down on a piece of scrap paper & she gets FULL MARKS for that assignment!!??!!! walao.. & to think i spent like the whole night doing it, hvg to slog through the thinking & writing process.. ok its not like my mark was really low la.. i got a 9 thou some of my ans were wrong.. but its the unfairness of it all that's really infuritating lor! & she didn't hand in her work on time for like 2-3 subsequent weeks & she didn't even get penalised for it! wat the heck man! argh!!!!!!!!! & she always likes to ask me my marks for the reports & assigns & den dunwan to tell me her marks! walao.. of cuz i won't go & ask u la.. its like so rude liddat.. i'm not like you! hurmph!

last fri she told me that she didn't finish her work AGAIN & that she was gonna hand in her prac report late.. & so i said," oh but he still gives u ok marks even if u hand in late right?" den she actually had the cheek to kinda smirk & reply me with," yeah.. but maybe this one he will take marks off.." walao.. that is so crap lor! it made me really angry man! so i said," oh but u always hand in late ya.. " & u know what, she actually got ANNOYED WITH ME & gave me this irritated look! walao, its me who should be getting angry at you lor, not the other way round!

mayb as my mum said, the demonstrator really likes her??? argh.. that is such a gross thought man... he's such a stoopit fat-lazy-irritating-stoopit-chain smoking-italian mafia acting-pig!!! everytime we ask him qns he doesn't know the ans & loves to pretend that he knows or he'll just say things like " oh you don't need to know that!"

i tink he just really hates me or smtg.. like, the last assign i did together with april & she got 9.5 frm her demonstrator! i oni got a measly 8.5 when our ans were essentially the same, just abit different with paraphrasing here & there.. crap man.. y did i have to get the lousy demonstrator who heck cares everything! so what if we're the first grp to finish early every week!? i rather finish late & get good marks on my reports den get crappy marks that are so unjustified for the amount of effort i put into it! all my brain squeezing to churn out long reports, all my late nights staying up & not slping just to push myself to finish, all the caffeine & junk food consumption to keep myself awake.. all for NOTHING!!! arggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

i'm so pissed i just want to email the subj coordinator & report him & her! i tell you, if she gets a better grade then me at the practical component (which gets graded by HIM again!) i'm so gonna flip!! she doesn't know what she's doing half the time & i'm the one telling her what to do!!!

oh, God help me please!